It's Cinco de Mayo!

My parents anniversary! Aww. I'm pretty sure they said it was good luck to have gotten married on this date. They're going out to dinner tonight, which means my sisters and I will have to figure out something to do in the meantime.... hmmmmm.....

In any case, it's really nice out today. A bit chilly, but that's ok with me. Some summer days should be sweatshirt friendly, and sweatpant optional. haha

Anyways... just killing time before work. It's gonna be a great week. I have 3 finals - one on Tuesday, and two on Thursday. And then I'm FREE FOR SUMMER!!! :-D Wee! Can't wait!

There's so much to do!

AC Moore is moving??

The AC Moore that I work at is relocating this June, and it's projected to open on the 12th, I think. In any case, it's got a lot of people grumbling about "driving so much further" to get there. I'm not complaining though. It's gonna be half the trip for me now. What was once a 10 minute commute to work, just became 5! Woo!

Very exciting - especially with gas prices so high these days.

In case you were wondering, my job there is floral designer. It's a lot of fun. I enjoy it a lot. A talent I didn't know I had in me. ha. And it's the busy season - weddings galore. Doing all this work is really worth it to me though - I've learned a lot, and it just means I'm gonna have one heck of a spectacular wedding. Haha (not that I'm in any hurry to do so. I'm just sayin it's gonna be very pretty. ha)

Stop and Smell the Future

Right now I'm feeling incredibly optimistic about the future. I realize people are all talking about how the economy is falling, and all the issues going on surrounding that, the presidential campaign, etc etc etc... But all in all, I'm a happy person.

Love my job, love where things are going, love my family, friends old and new, the sun is out, its a beautiful day, and I'm gonna take things as they come. :-)

Needless to say, I'm in quite a good mood today, and the future is looking bright. I have a lot going for me, and I'm not gonna take one bit of it for granted.

Updates:

1. I'm still recording and adding new demos to my band site

http://www.myspace.com/abbyfisher (if you're interested)

2. Boys. I'll give you the whole story. Bear with me.

I ended my "relations" with this one guy Andrew who lived in Fredrick. Things just weren't working out so well. What with the distance, and some "issues" I had... haha In any case, it wasn't working and we were both pretty mutual about the whole thing. Next thing I know, a good friend of mine, we'll call him the number "2," comes on to me basically rationalizing his feelings to me and saying that he feels like if he doesn't take a chance on it, he'll just end up regretting not doing anything later. I had always sort of had feelings for him, but never acted on them. He even asked me out once in high school, but I said no because he was on a lot of things in those days... He isn't now. Which is good for him. I'm happy he decided to stop. Anyway, at that point I figure, "Okay, we're dating." We hang out after that, and things are looking good. I'm happy with him, he seems happy with me, we're both happy, right? Well... no. After three days of this "bliss" im hanging out with 2 and his friend "1" - that makes me "3" (this'll be important later). So 1 gets up to go to the bathroom and 2 is next to me on the couch. He turns to me and says "I don't think it's a good idea..." And I say "What's not a good idea?" And he says "Dating..." I just give him this blank stare because that totally threw me. I didn't see it coming at all. 1 starts to come back from the bathroom and 2 says "Do you want to talk about this outside?" I say, "yes" and we go out on the porch.

I couldn't even look at him. I was just staring at my feet. It was cold, and I was just confused, and getting a bit upset by this point because I couldn't understand how anyone could just waste something like that and put the whole thing to rest after only 3 days. So to the best of my ability I'll tell you what he told me.

Basically, he told me that he didn't want to ruin a perfectly good friendship, he could only ever really see me as a "friend", he didn't want to hurt me, he said I'd end up getting frustrated with him and that would just be "who he was" (I'm already frustrated with you, babe.), everything after that that he said was kind of lost in my mind because I was so confused and it just felt so surreal at the time. Because that was the first time I had ever been "dumped."

Anyway, he finishes his rant and then turns to me and say "Do you have anything to say?"

I look up, just say "Ok." and go inside and sit on the couch.

He comes in, sits on the couch on the far wall, and then 2 and 1 start talking again.

I get up, say "I have school tomorrow. I'm gonna go." and then I just leave without even looking at either of them.

When I got home, I felt kinda bad for just leaving like that, so I call him to apologize and say that I feel like he's being stupid about all of this (which I wanted to say on the porch but couldn't) and that he didn't even give it a fair chance. I mean, come on. 3 days??? Wth. So I call him. He answers. I lose it. I can't even talk. I just start crying, say "I can't talk right now..." and hang up on him.

I gain composure. Call again, say what I wanted to in the above paragraph, and he says, "Abby, I'd just end up using you for sex, and I don't want to do that to you. It's not about chances..." with that I'm just pissed and I hang up on him again.

Two days pass and he calls to ask me how I'm doing. Omg. I'm a total mess, right? I can't go on... I might just kill myself... NOT. So yeah... I get over it, still think he's an idiot, and get on with life. He still wants to be friends, hang out, etc. Which I'm up for, I just felt weird about it since now all I wanted to do was kiss him, etc. That feeling passes, though.

After that, we did hang out. Only, he's still playing the flirt card while we're watching movies and stuff. Don't tell me we can't be more than friends, and then hold my hand, play with my hair, etc. What a hypocrite. At first I kind of enjoyed it, because I thought maybe that meant he re-thought everything and realized he was being stupid. But no... Wrong again. Then I started feeling like maybe he was the type of guy to use girls all the time and I stopped flirting back.

There's my story. Now any time I hang out with 2, 1 is there, so I'm a third wheel. Which is...gay. Last time he didn't even tell me that 1 was going to be there. But whatever... boys... psh... lol

3. School

I dropped my accounting class, not a moment too soon because I didn't even need it. I have a 3.0, which is awesome because now I get to keep my scholarship. I can't wait to graduate, anddddd that's all I want to say about school. Haha

4. Friends

Lots of people coming home for the holidays. Very exciting because some of them I haven't seen in months. I missed them. And now we're having a reunion! Woo!

5. Concerts

Lots of those coming up. Some past too. I went and saw Jimmy Eat World again on the 30th? of October. This month I'm seeing Michael W. Smith, and in December I'll be seeing Spitalfield, the Graduate, and Hot Rod Circuit (their last tour... *cries*) - I saw Hot Rod one other time before this one, and they were nothing short of amazing. I saw the Graduate at Warped Tour this past summer, and they were really good, I've never seen Spitalfield but I do like some of their music. And I've never seen MWS.

6. Work

I'm still currently out of a job. Which sucks. I have no money. Lots of people owe me money but I'm not one to hound people about it. I might bring it up now and then, but I'm never like "Give me my money you freak!" lol

Sooooo.... yeah.

I think that's good for now.

Another Update

So I'm going to be performing the music special at my church on September 23rd. I'm feeling a little anxious about it. Number one, because I don't know what to do, and number 2, because I doubt that Adam will sing with me... I was hoping to make it more of a duet than a solo because I freak myself out if I have to do anything on a stage, or anywhere for that matter, by myself. If you have any suggestions please let me know. I may end up writing something, but I don't know if i'll have the time for a project like that... In any case, I'm a little nervous. Three whole weeks before I even do it.

Also, apparently my left hand is allergic to silver. Maybe just this one finger. It keeps on getting irritated any time I wear my silver ring on my middle finger and I don't know why... my other hand is chill with silver. So whatever...

Update

I'm gonna get back into doing this. It definitely relieves my stress. I like being able to just spill out whats on my mind and not really care about who's reading it, who cares, and why. lol

The fall semester started yesterday...nothing spectacular there.

I had a really awesome dream last night - I was really dedicated to my music, touring, and had an album out. That was exciting. I woke up excited about it. And it makes me want to actually do it. I probably wont... but I really really want to. haha

You know what else I want? One of those DJ sound mixing tables. Those are really fun to play with. My friend Dan has one, and he showed me how a lot of it works. Kinda. I should play on it some more before I actually buy one, but it's definitely something that interests me. I make playlists all the time. Timed, themed, sequenced, conversational, paced, or even a story line. I can do it. One time, I made a 12 part series of playlists. All organized by key, then by subject matter, and then carefully ordered to flow from one to the next and so on. Even if that meant breaking songs apart or just taking pieces of one, and stringing it on another one. Yeah. OCD. I know...

Other than that, things are pretty good... I'm pretty broke, but I'm used to it. I used to have a lot of money, but now I have a car... Bla... When I have the money though, I'm going to buy three things:

1) A digital and 35 mm SLR
2) A mixing table
3) Happiness

New room!

So I got a new queen-sized bed, a headboard, and I reinvented my room entirely. It looks pretty good so far. I still need to hang a few pictures, and re-arrange a few random things here and there, but for the most part it's coming together really nicely.

I'll put up pictures eventually.

Class is still taking over my life, along with work. But this summer is gonna be filled with a ton of things to occupy my time, so I doubt i'll have a ton of time to post more blogs than usual. So yeah. Have a nice day.

Thought I'd give a quick update. :-)

A Bad Day Getting Worse

This has really been a day for emotional meltdowns. And letdowns for that matter. I had this huge presentation all set up for the Mother's Day service in church this morning. I even had a backup disk in case the first one didn't work. What I didn't plan on happening was the sound totally kirking out and not working at all.

I was thoroughly disgusted at the whole issue. I know there was no way it was anyone's fault, but I was pretty upset the entire time. I literally cried probably the whole service over it. It wasn't enough that I had spent so much time on it, but that it was specifically for Mother's Day. It would've been the perfect touch, you know?

Anyway...I'm bummed about the whole thing. They're showing it next week, but it won't be the same. What can ya do?

Feeling Strangely Fine

Okay so the sickness is wearing, im 200% better than I was 4 days ago, and I'm soooo happy that this semester is finally over! Woo!!! Well, I do have a May class, and that starts up this week... bummer... but other than that, things are really looking up right now. I'm hanging out with people more often, seeing more of everyone, and getting out there and just having fun. It's really great.

In July I'm going on a road trip with my best friend Adam, and my sister Hannah. That is totally going to be amazing. I'm going to knock off so many things from my list of things to do before I die, so I might just die in the process. haha no, not really. But I'm really excited about it. We might even tour along the way or something, and hand out demos, or just try to find small scale venues to play at. The end destination is going to be San Diego. It'll be a little hard to accomplish all this in only 10 days, but I'm pretty sure we can make it all work out. ;-)

Work is looking up too. I'm the last key carrier in the store right now, so basically everyone's being really nice to me because they want to keep me there. lol I'm totally gonna take this for all it's worth too. I won't let them pull me into anything I don't want to do. But it's awesome because they're all like kissing my feet now. haha not that much. But there's a definite shift in perception these days around the store. I feel like they all respect me now, and they don't give me any of the crap I used to go through there. Not that it was really that big a deal, but stuff used to just piss me off about all that because sometimes they can all just be so hypocritical. It's definitely nice to be appreciated there though. I came in sick the one day, and I couldn't talk. They sent me home and asked me to take the rest of the week to myself and just come in early on Friday to make up for it. How awesome is that? lol

Other than that, I'm looking forward to vacations, and going out on the weekends, and all this planning that's already in progress. I'm psyched! There will be tons of photos. Which reminds me, I'm getting more and more into photography too. Just like setting up shots, and taking really good ones. I'll be taking a photography course next semester. That makes me happy too.

Give me a call. You're sure to catch me in a good mood. :-)

Losing touch

So for the past two days, I've been highly medicated for my sore throat and sinus problem. It's making me kind of out of sinc with the rest of the world, and I'm having trouble concentrating on anything. This blog too.

Anyway, this should be interesting for finals. I have my second hardest tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes.

Since I've totally lost interest in this all together, I'll leave it at the fact that I'm really really out of it, and will be for about a week or so.

It's gonna be a good day...I hope.

Today I'm going on a venture to find a new job. Or atleast get applications or something. I didn't really want to go by myself, but nobody's home, and I don't know who isn't busy. I don't like bugging people either. It's weird. I love it when people call me, but whenever I want to do something with someone else, I can't bring myself to just call them. lol Maybe I should stop that. It's silly.

Anyway...

I don't know exactly where I'm going yet, or where I want to go. I have a few ideas, but nothing imparticular. I'm basically up for anything at this point.

The offset in all of this is that right now my throat is really sore, so it'll be hard for me to talk. That might not look so good when I'm asking for applications, but whatever. Wish me luck! I really want a new job.

I'm also going to the apple store in annapolis to figure out how to get more memory for this stupid computer. It keeps crashing on me, and that no es bueno.

So that'll be my day. I'm a little excited, a little nervous. I don't know why I make a big deal out of getting applications and make myself worry over it. lol What are they gonna say? No? lol

I need to stop being good at things...

I recently got into video and filming. I never thought I'd like the field at all, but I've been putting together compilations of videos for my family, filming some myself, and editing the media within all of them to make pretty well thought out presentations. (If I do say so myself)

But any time I get myself into a new field or hobby, I get myself all the more confused. Because that makes me wonder, still, and again, what in the world am I going to do for a career? I can't just do everything I'm good at. There's not a major for that. lol

In any case, I really need to stop finding more things to occupy time with, and start honing in on one specific thing to work on. If I don't, I'll be the one trying to sign up for "The Renaissance Man/Woman" major with a minor in "Everything Else."

Cinco de Mayo

So I know you're all DYING to find out what I did this weekend.

On Thursday night I went to a Hot Rod Circuit concert downtown. It was really really good. I didn't get any pictures, unfortunately, because I couldn't find my camera charger, and my battery was already dead. Boo. Either way, it was a good time.

I went and spent the rest of my weekend in PA with my sister and my parents. It was all right. We went to the Gaither's contert up there by Penn State. The thing that wasn't all right was that the concert was over 4 hours long, and it was all a bunch of old people. I have video footage and pictures to prove it. Anyone who was my or Hannah's age was mentally handicapped, and anyone younger was probably forced to go. Haha. I think I saw this one little boy start crying come to think of it.

But no, overall it was a good time. There were a lot of funny parts to the concert that made it a little more worth my while, but it definitely wasn't what I'd call "my scene." Let alone anyne under the age of 25. I made a slideshow for my mom on a DVD and one of the pictures is of the crowd and the caption says, "Bingo anyone?" - that made her laugh.

After the concert, we drove to the hotel. It was about 12:30am. I was pretty beat, so I went right to bed. We got up the next morning, went out to breakfast, and then went to Lewisburg to do some shopping. Surprisingly enough, I didn't spend a dime. The entire weekend. So, I'll have to blow it all this week. Maybe this weekend. Who knows.

All in all, it was an eventful weekend. Not the greatest, but atleast I didn't spend the whole thing at home, bored. But even if I did, I'm sure I wouldn't spend it at home. Id find somewhere to go.

Speaking of which, I'm gonna get out of here. When you wake up, this town's gonna be red. Maybe blue. I can't decide. Have a nice evening. :-)

Never Wait Until the Last Possible Minute...

...to write a 20 page research project.

Okay it's not 20 pages. But it sure as hell feels like that's what it's gonna be. But anyway...

I've barely had any time to breathe this week, let alone sit down and do research on a novel that I have to interpret and analyze. Did I mention that i haven't even fully read the novel??? Yeah...that'll be a setback. I should finish this week.

There's a draft workshop tomorrow, and I'm basically dreading it because I know that no matter what feedback I get on it, it'll probably pretty much stay in the condition that it is right now. Although, my final grade in the class is heavily dependent on the grade I get on this paper, so I might reconsider that aspect.

I'm running on a 12oz bottle of coke in my hand, and a bowl of quaker oats cereal in front of me to get through all this. The coke was a bad idea. I'm now totally wired and probably won't be getting any sleep tonight at all.

Did I also mention I have a test in Statistics tomorrow and it's now 1:00 in the morning? Yeah...I'm not doing so hot tonight, am I?

I better finish this... don't want to be up too late. Or should I say early... :-/

Gosh I'm so beat...

Research paper anyone???